human doing or human being?

"Be still and know that I am God..." - Psalm 46:10a

It's not so much about what we do... yet, that's not quite sinking in as much as it should.

I care so much about me. I worry so much about my future. About my present. About jobs, future locations, potential future husband, jobs again, where You want me or will send me.

but is this all what You care about?

Or do you care about... me.

My focus is still so much on things of this world. Give me a vision for greater things, Lord. For treasures stored up in heaven. We went for a walk today, and this was placed on my mind - that treasures stored up in heaven are, legitimately, treasures stored up in heaven. Where do I put my value? or take it, rather?

From others' image of me. From judgments. From what I am doing rather than who I am being. From almost anything but You. Not to say that I don't take my value in You... I seek it elsewhere still, though.

when will I learn, Lord? When will I stop saying "I," Lord? and be confident in who I am in and with you, Jesus? Can I let go of all of this, of myself, and stop being so selfish?

I don't want to know You just to become like You, Lord, that I may go and change the world... but, I want to be with You. to live life with You. to spend my days and my time and my life here on earth learning from and living with and falling more in love with You. May this be the greatest romance of my life, Lord. Greater than anything I could ever imagine, even with another person here on earth.

See, You know this about me already, but I am such a hopeless romantic. I want nothing more than to know and be known intimately. Inside and out. Heart for heart. Heart in heart, life in life, this is love.

Come in to my heart, Lord. Come into my life. Teach me, show me, and above all, Love me. I love you and want to spend the rest of eternity with You. Oh how awesome, Lord! How amazing beyond all comprehension!

Please remain at the center of everything in my life, that I may not look to the left or to the right, but straight into your eyes, or walk right by your side. And always be in your presence and witnessing your glory. And set my sights on naught else but You, Lord.